i mentioned earlier in the blog that i feel like my life, since donovan, is a game of tetris. each day is started by setting the schedule for the day and then placing bets in my head on how the day will end. this game of tetris use to be my biggest fear and now it is making me feel like a super hero.
after a long labor and recovery from a c-section i am realizing how much recovery i needed to go through, and how hard i was on myself in the beginning of this journey. i remember being i
n a state of constant panic on how i was ever going to be able to function with a baby. more than anything it was logistics of my life. lugging a car seat, driving alone with donovan.......the thought of going to the grocery store with a baby by myself was impossible in my mind. it was not until donovan was a month old that i felt that i could set goals for myself that would involve leaving my house. i had spent several weeks going through the logistics in my head of being mobile with baby. what if he has a meltdown in the car? what if he has a meltdown in public? do i use the stroller, carrier or baby bjorn? what if the car is too hot to put him into? what if he blows through the diaper?....and my answer to all of these questions....just abort mission. so i put my cape on and began reclaiming my life.
my first goal was taking a walk with our dog and the baby.....when i completed this i felt like a super hero. meeting my first goal left me feeling so fantastic that i set a new goal......take donovan to an outdoor mall to walk
around and maybe stroll through barnes and noble if i am feeling brave.......done. i often see people working on computers in business suits and think "you sir have no idea how hard i am working right now". the next week i realized we were running low on frozen meals from mama and i thought new goal.....cook dinner for the family. and so i did. next goal...... play date involving interstate driving. next goal.......... host play date. drum roll please...and next goal.......grocery store, alone, on double coupon day....done! i have never walked with my head held higher then when i grocery shop while lugging a diaper bag on my back, coupon folder in hand, and baby in cart....without parking in the "mother with young children parking" spot. it seems so long ago that i was living out of my bedroom. in just 10 weeks i have gone from invalid to full functioning mom. it is true that
if you can be a mom you can do anything....or at least that is what it feels like.****i am often so proud of my travels that i take pictures with my phone and send them to dan during the day to show off. so these are some pics to document my super hero activity. first trip to target (w/dan to learn the stroller), first walk around the neighborhood, first walk at birkdale, shopping with donovan, donovan looking out of bjorn.****
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